Happy Homemaker, Ph.D.

A novice homemaker's attempts to use her engineering Ph.D. to serve her family

The First Day of the Rest of My Life

I woke up before 5 a.m. this morning, thinking, “Today is the first day of the rest of my life.”  Grades are turned in, and while there are still some things to finish up at the office (mostly moving my things out of it), I’m essentially finished with my academic responsibilities – for the first time in my married life.

Finished finished.  No next semester to think about and plan for.  No dissertation hanging over my head.  Finished.

The idea seems a bit surreal.

I’m not sure if I’m entirely ready to let go.  Finishing a semester is one thing.  Of course, I’m ready for that!  Letting the not-so-positive comments on my TEVALS slide off my now somewhat-thickened skin without having to really analyze them and try to make changes?  Oh yes, I’m ready!  Ready to go through my textbooks and papers, assignments and projects that I’ve created and worked with for four years and try to decide it these things are worth keeping?  That, I’m not so sure.  That process involves a finality that I’m not sure I’m ready for right now.

But, it’s time.

Time to focus on a new adventure, one that requires different skills, resources, and knowledge.  Time to focus on application instead of theory.  Time to be available – for my family and for others.  Time to look to Jesus and get out of the boat.

When I talked to my husband on the phone this afternoon, he said there was already more joy in my voice last night and today.  🙂

I can’t wait to see what God has in store for this next season!